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i must say - i regret saying i couldn't wait for this project to end.

i don't really feel that way. i suppose it was just the many emotions tumbling through my body right now.

i have loved doing this blog and the sense of purpose and comfort it has provided. this has been a very extreme year in terms of my emotional experiences and it continues to present challenges to me. but that only makes this more valuable and stronger in its statement to me.

i went back and read my very first entry, on december 23, 2008.

i have changed since then. and it is definitely due in part to the discoveries i've made here and the support i have gotten from a small group of very generous and lovely people, from 3d and from online. i cannot ever undervalue that and i sort of feel i did do that in my entry yesterday. i don't apologize for my emotion but i will apologize for not acknowledging you (you know who you are). thank you for being there throughout this.

i am no where near to discovering the true voice of the artist inside of me but i am definitely on my way and hope to be even closer by the time the bells chime in the first midnight of 2010.